Because I felt like a hypocrite and a liar and just plain strange about not telling you the whole truth.
Because I was afraid you might judge me I evaded you, but I know I will never feel right until I tell.
So I am.
Two weeks ago today I had an abortion.
Emboldened by my experience yesterday, I decide to tell my online friends who had noticed that something was wrong in the weeks from when I first learned of my pregnancy through my abortion.
Two of thse women are Catholic and pro choice for others, but not themselves. One friend experienced an unplanned pregnancy, which she continued, while the other woman has a long history of infertility. I am more frightened telling them, more afraid of their reaction. I am not yet sure if I will tell them about this blog.
My heart pounded as I hit send.
Now I wait.
10 months ago